I almost went outside today. I almost did all my chores. I almost found some additional paid work. I almost went to the gallery.
I really wanted to get outside today, but it started raining, a delivery arrived later than I wanted it to, I didn’t have any money for lunch, I got some bad news about a relative and I was overloaded with tasks that I should have done ages ago. I was also distracted by new work banter.
More importantly there was something that I wanted to do today. But by the time I got to it I wanted to lie down.
It had been raining and I didn’t want to cycle as it was too wet, the train would be too expensive and the bus simultaneously too far and too long.
I was encouraged to do drawing or something creative. But literally I don’t have the right energy for that right now.
Start your day as you want
And then I reminded myself – there is a battle between:
- Reward for completing all the stuff you’ve been avoiding by getting all the boring stuff out the way
- Starting with what you actually want to do and making the most out of it
Recently I’ve been trialling delayed gratification. JOMO (joy of missing out). And being comfortable alone.
This has meant doing all the boring stuff first. And getting it out of the way. And I will have a fresh bed, tidier home, some stuff packed away properly and I can enjoy everything right?
I think from now on I will start the day more how I want to; and use my energy to build myself to what it is I want to do.
It’s important to start the day with joy, and not with a sigh.