Ambition should be made of sterner stuff

William Shakespeare

If all it took was ambition, then life would be so much more easier. But ambition is made of so much more than goals:

  • Energy
  • Positivity
  • Optimistic outlook
  • Coaching
  • Learning
  • Can do, will do
  • Pushing without limits
  • Realism
  • Altruism
  • Others
  • Motivation
  • Self care
  • Blood, sweat, tears, joy, recognition, reward

Right now if you were to ask me what my ambition was. I wouldn’t know. I like my options open. My ambition is to change and grow in whatever way I am shaped. By whatever I find I enjoy. Discovery.

I realised I can’t live a life where I want any certain outcome in my head. It’s too much to imagine. Instead I need to discover the right process.

Do not aim for what you love, but love the process of getting somewhere

Jay Shetty, Urban Monl

Goals without motivation to enjoy getting there is hard. It is impossible to achieve any goal if you don’t like the process of getting there.

The process and doing is the very graft that achieves an outcome. And there has been a lot of graft in my life when I reach an outcome and feel disappointment.

Was that it?

Reward comes from the process of growth. Not the reward or ambition in itself.

I like to develop photos manually. There is a certain magic and reward in manually making a picture come to life. The level of control and in a flash of 20 seconds as you dip the photo paper into the developer; the unknown becomes real.

It is with great anxiety from placing the film in the camera through to processing it that I never know the outcome of that shot. And the same photo can be developed in many ways. Small nudges, small changes, a slight change in exposure, the temperature of the development chemicals can alter the outcome.

Amsterdam, in the snow. Manual photo.

And that’s the realisation of the process. My main challenge is to concentrate on each step without flickering from one thing to the next.

And looking back at all the “bad” photos, I only have to save, remember, recall and share the best ones.

That’s a process of trial and error. Of learning, rather than fixed outcomes.